“Then said Jesus to those Jews which believed on him, If ye continue in my word, then are ye my disciples indeed; And ye shall know the truth, and the truth shall make you free.” — John 8:31-32
I gave up on my dreams. Five years ago, I realized I could not be the person I was expected to be. I could not measure up. Eighteen months ago I hit a breaking point. My first breakthrough was the release of my first book.
Over the last few months many dreams have come to me. Growing up I had many dreams and visions. The Spirit showed me wonderful glimpses of the future but I just couldn’t understand how it would all come together. After interpreting one of my major dreams, my grandmother said, “George, you have to always do what the Spirit tells you to do.” These are true words! But how to do apply these words in the midst of criticism, failures, trials, and tribulations? How do you obey the Spirit when it means losing the people that you’ve come to love so dear?
Over the past six years I have lost dear friends. Not by death. No, I’ve lost dear friends because I have failed to confirm to their image of who they thought I ought to be. I failed to live where they thought I ought to live. I failed to married who they thought I ought to marry. I failed to be who they thought I ought to be. Yes, people make plans for your life without telling you.
Time goes by so fast. No one knows when our final hour will come. How sad would it be if you died trying to please others but never achieved your dreams? I hope all of you realize that thousands of people die in this state every day.
Today is your day. Read John 8:31-47. Become a disciple of truth. Discipline yourself to ingest truth ALL day EVERY day. Don’t be satisfied with alright-ness. Press forward so that you may achieve greatness.
My biggest fear growing up was that people wouldn’t understand me. In adulthood, my fears became reality and crippled me. “Perfect love casts out fear.” My one mistake these last five or six years was to not fully capitalize on the blessings God had given me. When I realized that I couldn’t be who everyone wanted me to be, that was God BLESSING me with the space to become who HE wanted me to be.
Too often we make gods out of people and let them rule over us. While we must always give respect to our leaders, elders, parents, and so forth, no human being can take the place of you knowing God for yourself.
Now that I let God prune away my fears and insecurities, I move forward with boldness. Let God have his way in your life. Stop worrying about who will accept you or reject you. If a person stops loving you and being kind to you because you have decided to follow your dreams, understand that they never loved you in the first place. Oh they loved at you. They loved a form of you. But they didn’t love the real you.
Be you. Be the you God created you to be. Then as people get to know the real you, they will either like you or dislike you—love you or hate you. Don’t worry. You will always have people that love you and like you. You will always have friends. You will always have a support system. I know some of you are saying—that is not true because I’m out here all alone. No, you are not alone. Let God build you and your team up. Stop trying to make people accept you.
I have reclaimed my dreams. I have reclaimed my visions. I will not shut-up. I will not quit. I will not get sick. I will not die.
I have the honor to be your obedient servant,
Rev. George H. Latimer-Knight
Written July 30, 2015 at age 33